I'll stab you...

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-10-30T18:32:00

2005-10-30T23:34:54Z

wow.. i havent been on here in like forever!! well i dont really have much to say.. umm i dont want to go to school tomorrow.. so this is why i never did this thing.. i have nothign to say. oh well. umm i guess i'm going to go .. i dont know when i'll update agin.. so later days

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-05-26T13:47:00

2005-05-26T17:47:53Z

I'm sorry Dillon.

fuck you

2005-05-24T14:53:08Z

why do you have to be such an asshole!? GODDAMNIT!!! how did i ever fall in love with you? i regret everything i ever did with you now. it makes me sick to think about you. when i saw you yesterday i was scared, yeah, but if i saw you today i would fucking walk right by you and not even fucking look at you becuase you make me sick. i'm sorry i gave myself to you. and i'm sorry you gave yourself to me. thanks for making me feel like shit. thanks for chaning me to where none of my friends like me anymore.. i'm so fucking glad that you broke up with me. i know i wasn't at the time, but now i see who you really are, and what you did to me. so fuck you. that's all i have to say now.. and when you broke up with me and i said that you should have just said no, about when we were tlaking about sex, were you really sad and hurt? or was it just you, knowing that what i said would "hurt" you so you said it? i want to know Dillon! why did you do all that shit to me? why did you tell me i was beautiful when you didnt really think so!? why did you hurt me so bad? but now, i'm not hurting anymore. i dont care about you anymore. i dont love you anymore. i'm so fucking over you. the end

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-05-23T22:26:00

2005-05-24T02:25:56Z

so i saw dillon today.. dont know if he saw me.. almost fell to the floor because i was shaking so much.. but oh well.. got nothing else to say.. been with hill since thursday.. will be here all summer.. alright later

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-05-06T21:57:00

2005-05-07T01:57:28Z

I love Hillary.

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-05-06T18:08:00

2005-05-06T22:11:50Z

so i've deciede that i want some sex.. and some weed.. that would be so nice right now.. that's really all i want. i dont want a boyfriend.. i'm going to date around but nothing serious right now.. unless the right guy comes around.. dont really see that happening anytime soon. umm about a week of school left for me. i'm going to take my finals next week so i dont have to even go the last week. so yeah that's cool.. think i have a fuck buddy.. kinda weird, never had one so yeah gonna have to see how that one turns out.. umm yeah i think that's it just want some sex and weed.. later

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-05-01T12:35:00

2005-05-01T16:37:14Z

I’ve sure enjoyed the rain
But I’m looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
When you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time
Would take away these lonely tears
I hope you’re doing fine all alone,
But where do I go from here ’cause

Without you I’m not okay
And without you
I’ve lost my way
My heart’s stuck
In second place ooh
Without you

Well I never thought I’d be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
The life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
Making love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted
But what about me ’cause

Without you I’m not okay
And without you
I’ve lost my way
My heart’s stuck
In second place ooh
Without you

Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I’m better off without you
’cause baby I can’t live

Without you I’m not okay
And without you
I’ve lost my way
My heart’s stuck
In second place ooh
Without you...without you

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-04-24T16:06:00

2005-04-24T23:06:45Z

so i just got home.. man i feel like i've just been everywhere this weekend. first off to nashville.. then to ryan's house then to see david.. we saw kevin also before we went to nashville.

so friday..
went to school. got told probably the best thing in my entire life by hillary!! it was so awesome! yes soon hill soon. i'm going to talk to spence and we'll set up at time and place. HELL MOTHERFUCKING YES!!! then got checked out at 3. went to eye doctor. cancled it because i didnt really see a point in it. started off the nashville. but not before some food. then i drive some... get to s.. something.. place where my brother lives now.. he moved and didnt tell us.. humm yeah we are really close.. go crazy becuase i cant merge into traffic so i pull over and let my dad drive.. he pulls out infrount of some mexicans who get all pissed becuase they are rude and wouldnt let him out so he just pulled out.. go eat at this really bad place with my brother and his family.. head off to nashville. check in and just hang out at the hotel.

saturday..
wake up at 7 motherfucking o'clock. go back to sleep till like 9.. 10 here. watch some tv. dad brings up some food have to scoop out my cream cheese with my finger becuase i didnt have a knife. then just walk around the hotel untill 3.. called hill some. then at 3 left to go to ryan's house.. went to this school and saw his show choir.. they were alright. then rode with him back to his house listened to abunch of cds i hadnt listened to in like forever! it was fun. then hung out with him and watched a few movies with him.. fell asleep in his bed.. woke up with my ass all up on him. just layed there and thought about stuff.. he woke up and we just talked it was nice. we talked about everything from school to Cliff. then went back to sleep.

sunday...
still in ryan's bed in the morning we woke up that's when we talked about everything. then went back to sleep.. woke up when he got up. heard my mom say "sleepin' with my daughter" and i just giggled.. woke up.. my eyes were all red becuase they have a cat.. then ate breakfast. ryan had to leave at 11:20 to go to work.. then we left at like 11:30. and went to davids house to say hello. got there at like i dont remember but stayed awhile.. played with the kids.. then we left and i drove.. we stoped to eat. and now i am home.. and i am so happy..

i dont want to go to school tomorrow but i dont want to stay here becuase if i do then mrs. calloway would kill me.. yay! that would be so much fun. well i'm all out of words.. besides i think i'm sick but oh well.. alright i'll update next when i feel like it... alright bye

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-04-22T18:26:00

2005-04-22T22:26:43Z

My name is Lauren and Im a who-er.

i dont want to cry anymore

2005-04-15T20:27:31Z

my life fucking sucks right now!! this month has been the worst month ever!!!

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-04-08T19:04:00

2005-04-08T23:05:01Z

i dont know what to do!

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-03-24T21:58:00

2005-03-25T03:00:14Z

humm

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-03-24T12:09:00

2005-03-24T17:09:42Z

Blown off again for a stupid bitch
More strife again for a stupid bitch
Left again in this drainage ditch
Sleeping again in this drainage ditch

Genius ignored again when it's right
People refuse to listen to what's right
Always comes down to the same old fight
Always has to end with a great big fight

Who's right? Who's wrong? Who cares?
What's right? What's wrong? Who cares?
Once again you're in my prayers
Once again he hears my prayers

Love unfulfilled is the bitch
Love unfulfilled is our bitch
Friendless life...the ditch
Drainage, pain, in the ditch

Genius...everyone but them
Everyone sees but them
The fight...whose right?
The right...what's right?

Who's right? Who knows?
What's right? He knows...
Who cares? Friends...
Who knows? Friends...

Who listens? Not them...
Who hears? God...not them
So what's the answer...just leave it alone...
What's the fucking key...just leave it alone...

Sorry...

-Dillon

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-01-09T10:46:00

2005-01-09T18:58:50Z

so i went to a frined of the family yesterday. we went a hung out and then we went to eat and then we went back to their house hung out somemore and then left.. oh and on the way home not two mins away from their house we hit a deer!!! omg!! it scared the crap out of us.. and the deer, but no really there is deer poop on the side of our car.. but it broke the right head light off and messed up some of the hood.. so we had to spend the night up there. and now i'm home.. alright well i'm going to church with dillon tonight.. yay! i havent seen him since friday.. alright well i'm going to go so later days

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-01-05T13:38:00

2005-01-05T21:44:18Z

today was a lot better then i thought it would be.. everyone was in a good mood and that made me really happy.. some people were down, but it was alright. i think today was the best day in mrs. haan's class..jen and i just sat out in the hall and played with her bouncy ball.. it was so funny. i dont think i have ever laughed so much with her. then i was messin with hillary in biology.. it was great.. she is so fun to mess with. i really want to see the movie white noise.. it looks so good!! sorry that was kinda random but it was just on the tv so i thought i would share with all of you. well i dont really know what else to say.. i'm going to church with dillon today!! yay! he makes me so happy. i just love being with him! yay! alright love ya'lls later days

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-01-04T06:31:00

2005-01-04T14:31:35Z

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Wear my underwear outside my pants.

Get your resolution here

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-01-02T10:29:00

2005-01-02T15:37:03Z

well it's 10:30 in the am right now and i really should be showering but dillon hasnt called me yet to tell me they are leaving so i think i've got time. lol. and if i dont then....... oh well. yeah well i got home yesterday from bell buckle, tennessee. it's a cute little town. my brother, david, lives there with his family. i didnt do much up there besides go to wal-mart. that's just about all they do up there. and watch movies. yep. i ate at the bell buckle cafe, it was so cute. i talked to dillon. but not enough. it was weird because we talk for like the whole day and up there we could only talk like a hour or two a day. so yeah that was weird. but i'm home now.

when i got home i had to go to work with my parents. then my dad took me to guess where.. wal-mart. lol but to see dillon. dillon and i went to eat and then went to office max. it was fun all we did was act silly. and make out. lol.

well i'm going up there today. we are going to his aunts house for them to have their christmas. she got me something.. it's crazy i've never had so many presents. his whole family got me something. they really didnt have to but i mean i'm thankful for everything they give me. it's a nice thought.

we didnt get his aunt anything.. so we are going to get her a book or something..

well i'm going to go take a shower. so later days

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2005-01-01T16:41:00

2005-01-02T00:43:44Z

"What Am I To You?"

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

-Norah Jones

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-31T17:32:00

2004-12-31T22:34:01Z

In case you have been wondering, I have been out of town, but I shall return tomorrow...this isn't really Lauren...this is Dillon, and I'm doin this...because...I'm cool...alright, but Lauren will be back tomorrow and will tell the world of her journeys...

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-24T18:29:00

2004-12-25T02:34:15Z

yes!! i'm so excited! tomorrow is the big day!! well i went to dillon's house today because they had to do their christmas on christmas eve because dillon's mom is working tomorrow. so i got my stuff from him and his family today. i got so much from them. and him. the best thing i got was a ring. it was dillon's mom's ring that his dad gave her when they were young. it's so pretty. i also got some smell good stuff and some lip gloss and a dvd and a cd and so much more. it was great. i love dillon. and no not just because of the presents. because you are so great to me. i love you more than anything and anyone baby. well that's all for today. more tomorrow. later days

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-24T07:32:00

2004-12-24T15:32:46Z

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

A broomstick

Your Favorite Target:

Mall employees

Your Kill Count:

441,354,348

Your Battle Cry:

"Who let the dogs out?"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$305,078,169,693,587

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 8%

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urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-23T10:54:00

2004-12-23T18:54:56Z

LAUREN
L	is for	Liberal
A	is for	Alluring
U	is for	Unique
R	is for	Radiant
E	is for	Emotional
N	is for	Naughty

What Does Your Name Mean?

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-21T17:01:00

2004-12-21T22:01:48Z

Your Boobies' Names Are: Mork and Mindy

Get your own Boobie Names

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-20T18:03:00

2004-12-20T23:12:31Z

I know I shouldn't complain but what are you supposed to do when your mother tells you have something wrong with you? She says this because I can't talk to her. I dont know what to do, how to act. I can't talk to her becuase she doesnt know who I am. She doesnt know anything about me. oh well. I have so much going on in my head. The tears just keep coming. Dillon keeps trying to make me feel better but I just keep thinking about it. Then I start crying again. It a never ending cycle. I don't know if there is any hope for it. whatever, I'll be gone in one week so that will be one week without her.. maybe by the time I get back it will be better.. not all fixed but better... oh well

urbanmonkey2006 @ 2004-12-19T17:46:00

2004-12-20T01:54:54Z

so this weekend has been a good one. i went the to movies and mall with dillon on friday. it was fun. saturday went to shopping with.. you know who.. dillon!! yay! ran in to my parents, told them to buy me a cell phone.. dont really know if it's going to happen. my damn mother.. oh well. then today dillon and his dad and his little sister picked me up after church and i went up there and spent the day up there. it was fun also. i love him so much i really do. it so great. it really is, i'm so happy with him. we were tlaking today, and some how we got to talking about how many people i've done stuff with and same with him... and i told him that i've only made out with 2 people.. but i dont even remember how that person made out. and dillon was like that's good. and yes it is.. i love him... i am in love and it's the greatest feeling ever! you should try it out sometime.. lol.. well i think that's all i have for now.. later days